Laying in his dark room
My skin feeling numb beneath the cold sheets
And all I want to do is run
But I can’t move
And I can’t speak
I just stare up at the ceiling, reflecting on how I got here
What happened to the girl I used to be?
My mind wanders to the last boy who stole my heart
Everything was perfect, until it wasn’t
And eventually he began to dangle our relationship in front of me
Threaten to leave me, causing me to panic every time he was upset
Or maybe it goes all the way back to the very first boy who laid a hand on me
And after taking everything I had to give
He proceeded to tell me he had never cared about me at all
Is that where it all began?
I wish I could take it all back
Because I don’t like who I am
And I feel worthless and cold every time I’m alone
And maybe that’s why I strip down, completely bare
For any guy who shows an inkling that they care.